The Awakening

I was sleeping oh so peacefully last night when all of a sudden I was awakened by something. What was is? Well, I had fallen asleep early last night and forgot to put a diaper on my little one. Yep, it was pee. I woke up, woke my husband up and we cleaned up as well as we could in our sleepy stupor.

The problem was not the pee. The problem was that I could not go back to sleep. I ended up being awake for 3 1/2 hours. I thought and I prayed and I prayed and I thought.

One thing that was constantly on my mind was my friend Julie. Julie has been a part of our lives for forever. She just sent her only daughter off to college. Now she and her daughter are very close. I can't believe she's already old enough for college. You see, Madie was the flower girl in my wedding 10 years ago. 10 YEARS AGO!!! It really does seem like yesterday. And yet today she a gorgeous young woman starting out on her own journey. It's exciting and yet sad at the same time. I can't wait to see all of the wonderful things that the Lord has in store for her.

After thinking of and praying for Julie for awhile, I started thinking about my own kids. I know that I will literally blink my eyes and that day will be here for us. The day that we send our kids off to College. The day that they start their own journeys.

Last night I snuggled my kids so tight. I whispered sweet things to them that they were too asleep to hear. And today all I can think about is how I want to freeze time.

How I want to sit in the floor and play

.... bake cookies just because

...... get down on their levels and look them in the eye when they talk to me.

I want to play games and sing songs.

I want to be encouraging and cheerful.

I want to not say "in a minute" but stop everything just to hear about each Mario level.

I want to dress baby dolls and play house.

I want to play barbies and "guys".

I want to blow bubbles and play at the park.

But most of all..................

I want desperately to disciple them and teach them everything that I know about the true God of the Bible and His son

.......... because I know that one day I will open my doors and let them out into a world that doesn't know Him.

I want to soak up every minute of their childhood

...........because one day I will open my eyes and my babies will be big.

I will blink and years will have passed and I will be the one decorating a dorm room and driving away saying "this feels kind of yucky".